truth is freedom

so im feeling a bit blue today. there is something that is bothering me a ridiculous amount and instead of doing everything i can to move past it and stay positive i am dwelling and blobbing around like a sloth. this past week i was doing pretty great at maintaining my cool. i went jogging excessively and focused on things like laughter and art projects. today i am backsliding heavily, 'crashing and burning as some say. i know that sitting here watching tv all day is only making matters worse...so than why am i still doing it? i think its my feelings. my feelings have me in such a funk that they are crippling me inside. they are being whiny babies that want attention and they want to feel empowered or enlarged. they want to feel like rock stars. its called self pity i suppose. you know what? i am tired of it though. alls i have to do is get off my lazy ass, stop moping, take a walk , or call up a friend. crying about it isnt going to change what is impossible to change! it all lies in the power of choice. these are the unfortunate facts now how am i going ot deal with them? am i going to let them play tic tac toe with my emotions or am i going to take back the steering wheel and be the one in power? the brain can be like a little disobedient child that must be parented. i think im going to choose to do what it takes to feel better even if its by a mere fraction. choose..just choose.