will it be?

as i LAYED there in a frozen coma
I FELT the dopamine
leaking from my brain
floods and floods of
this precious pleasure chemical
leaking and bleeding
through me
Out of me
like flood
a waterfall
of pitch black

SAIL AWAY SAIL AWAY

Emotions so hyper and backwards

So fragile

A birds melody could make me cry

Pins pricked me
Like demons were being crucified on my body
My brain was hot lava
Scorched
Torched
i felt like fire was licking my skin

I WAS FIRE
I WAS WATER
I WAS TEARS
I WAS BLOOD

I WAS SUNSHINE
I WAS RAIN
I WAS ANGRY
I WAS LAME

I WAS HAUNTED
I WAS BRUISED
I WAS LOVED
BUT STILL CONFUSED


I was fearless
I was thunder
I was bold
Now just blunders

I was love
I was laughter
I was I was
but now im shattered

I need a lantern
I need some fuel
Life’s too slow
Pains too cruel

I need a map
I need a key
I need a …
But will it be?

.........
some never think they will make it out alive. some never try.. but i am here to tell you all that it is possible to become free from addiction and depression. i've learned my lesson that it is never too late to apologize to God and to make things right.. he will always forgive and forget. God will give you the strength to LIVE. give your heart to God, he is the only way to make it out alive.

we the flock...

sometimes there will be wolfs aiming to break up the flock. this is why 'we the flock' must huddle together like a tight knit family. we have to carry each others burdens and love one another so when the ravenous beasts come to tear into our white wool, we will stand strong.when we realize how important community is in the family of God, we will truly start letting the petty little arguments and disagreements go.

like acidic rain.

deaf put a strain on this relational game
when we close our ears we tend toward vain

mental negativity vomits up all the complaints
knees buckle light now we're ready to faint
our holier than though mouths need a little restraint
i dont believe some are sinners while others are saints

so when it comes to judging, i WILL refrain
cuz judgementalism is a drug with no gain
a high that flows down like acidic rain